Well the swelling went down after the weeks dosage of antibiotics - I didn't say anything to anyone as I didn't want to scare anyone.

I went to the doctor a week and a half later to check everything was ok - it wasn't - she still felta lump of hard tissue in my right breast which didn't exist in my left. She told me not to worry, the infection probably wasn't cleared or it could be something that I have had all my lif. Never the less, she wanted to get it checked out and referred me to a specialist.

The letter came in the post today for an appointment on 02 July. I've not told anyone - but I'm wishing the appointment would come sooner as I want to get this done and over with. I try not to think about it - better to worry when the time comes I keep thinking - but it is lying right at there in my head all the time. It is scaring me because I feel so tired now - tired all the time - like life has been sucked out of me.

I just so wish I had my mum with me now. I don't feel comfortable talking about it with my friends as I don't want to tie them down. I just feel so empty and lonely at the moment. I guess the only real preson I could ever talk things with was my mother but that's impossible at this moment of time.