Oh - It's nice to feel sexy again. I've got the jump back into my hop - I'm starting to feel like my old self again! Hooray! I knew I was back in there somewhere!
I do have to say, that not being vain or self centred here - but posting that photograph on the dating sites - well it has done wonders to my confidence. For the past 6 years I was thinking - I'm not good enough, not fit enough, not smart enough - I began to doubt everything that was me. That was my own worst enemy - me. These last couple of weeks I began to realise I am a smart, sexy woman. I am something to be proud of. That feeling - well that feeling feels great.
OK there have been many guys well - who arejust plain weird - there is the accountant who deals in futures and shares but who also reads tarots, palms and reiki (??????). Then there is the stockbroker who asked me if I was into the master and slave thing and asked me whether I would like him to be my master. And I donknmow what it is but I keep getting emails from younger men - and I must say - some of them are bloody hot!
Infact, I was quite naughty and decided to have a bottle of red and my laptop last night and ended up chatting dirty (very naughty I know) but it was soooooooo muuuuuuucchchchchchchch fun!!!!!!!
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Monday, January 08, 2007
Witches Brew
Oh God, just got a new German flatmate to replace to Polish flatmate who left just before Christmas - she sounds like cat being strangled permanently - I mean the gal doesn't switch off - don't get me wrong - the gal is very good looking and lovely but when she opens her mouth it sounds like someone has just stepped on a cats tail - I mean the dogs in Hong can hear her - my wee brain - oh the cells....
On another note the other German flatmate decided to show off her 'redecorated room' to be - Jesus Christ - it looks like a harem - gone are the lovely varnished old wooden floors and cream walls replace with see through fabrics, batiks and more see through fabrics, oriental rugs and lots of jos sticks - by golly - her ikea bed spread shouts to be taken into custody - what a beautiful room it used to be - I can to fake my 'oh it's lovely' but I normally am a bad liar - so she probably knows I think it looks - well - it looks like an asylum seeker lives there - now don't get me wrong I have nothing against aylum seekers - but it bloody well looks like an asylum seeker lives there - I am embarrased to invite people around .....
Well, did what my friend W, said and finally posted my photo on the dating site - and he was right - it did work - there a quite a few more, many from the same sort of wankers however the nice guys are starting to show their faces. Basically, we all have to now admit that it is true - the truth is that if you don't post your photo, no matter how good your advert sounds, all the guys ill think you are a moose - I'm not saying I'm stunningly attractive - I'm not that vain - but I am no moose either.
My very drunk french flatmate keeps popping his head round the door and telling me good night - one more and I think I'm going to punch him in the face.
Anyway, going to finish my cuppa and drift off to sleep. Again, I am having problems sleeping - 2 am in the morning, go to bed and ping my eyes are wide awake and then it's up for 8am for work again - and there goes the cycle. Needless to say I'm being really dull now - bloody hell I need a good rodgering.....
OK, goodnight, farewell, au revoir and my french flat mate is now going to get punched.
On another note the other German flatmate decided to show off her 'redecorated room' to be - Jesus Christ - it looks like a harem - gone are the lovely varnished old wooden floors and cream walls replace with see through fabrics, batiks and more see through fabrics, oriental rugs and lots of jos sticks - by golly - her ikea bed spread shouts to be taken into custody - what a beautiful room it used to be - I can to fake my 'oh it's lovely' but I normally am a bad liar - so she probably knows I think it looks - well - it looks like an asylum seeker lives there - now don't get me wrong I have nothing against aylum seekers - but it bloody well looks like an asylum seeker lives there - I am embarrased to invite people around .....
Well, did what my friend W, said and finally posted my photo on the dating site - and he was right - it did work - there a quite a few more, many from the same sort of wankers however the nice guys are starting to show their faces. Basically, we all have to now admit that it is true - the truth is that if you don't post your photo, no matter how good your advert sounds, all the guys ill think you are a moose - I'm not saying I'm stunningly attractive - I'm not that vain - but I am no moose either.
My very drunk french flatmate keeps popping his head round the door and telling me good night - one more and I think I'm going to punch him in the face.
Anyway, going to finish my cuppa and drift off to sleep. Again, I am having problems sleeping - 2 am in the morning, go to bed and ping my eyes are wide awake and then it's up for 8am for work again - and there goes the cycle. Needless to say I'm being really dull now - bloody hell I need a good rodgering.....
OK, goodnight, farewell, au revoir and my french flat mate is now going to get punched.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
BLOCK, BLOCK, BLOCK
I fuckin had it all men are creeps.
Thought I check into the advert which I placed in one of the dating columns on the web. Recieved the following from a 42 year old username daveyduh - who apparently put himself down as living in Edinburgh with a kid in a relationship.
24 December 2006
Hello Lols, figured rather than query what an intertube is (??), I'd go straight for the jugular and ask which arts d'ya go for, like is it say the modern art museum and talbot rice thingy or the national gallery on the mound? Then follow that up with mexico and the Aztecs - like why them and not say Egypt or some of the ancient ruins in Asia?
Did not respond to this as this guy was in a relationship and had a kid.
The next day received the following:
25 December 2006
Well I figured, gazing over the Christmas carnage, that seeing as we both live in the shadow of Arthur's seat I'd have one last attempt (I figure 4 messages would be desperate, 5-6 a bit unnerving and 7+ downright creepy). So what you get for Christmas?
Still didn't respond. Thought he might take the hint and leave me alone.
Then low and behold guess what I received today:
03 January 2007
Please excuse me, I clearly didn't appreciate how special (or is that "wacky" or perhaps just rude), you actually are.
His location was now marked in Bristol. Funny that. Sorry? What was that? Wacky and rude for not responding to someones advert in dating column because they are in a relationship with child? Sorry - Fuck you mate - It's the sort of bastards like you that give men a bad name and so you can't take rejection on the chin so you have to write back and insult to feel better. So your quite happy to screw behind your partner's back - clearly FUCK OFF. BLOCK!!!
I felt so angry - so angry and then I thought to myself - I'm letting that piece of shit ruin my evening - NO.
Then low and behold just after I logged on I get a message from UserID DirtyGirlLover - what have I done to deserve this?
03 January 2007
Hiya babe, luv your profile you sound great. Luv to get to know you a bit better - At the moment I'm looking for no strings fun. Age and looks are unimportant, I just love women. x
WHERE DO I GET THESE TWATS FROM? WHERE DO THEY COME FROM?????????????????????????????????????????????????
Thought I check into the advert which I placed in one of the dating columns on the web. Recieved the following from a 42 year old username daveyduh - who apparently put himself down as living in Edinburgh with a kid in a relationship.
24 December 2006
Hello Lols, figured rather than query what an intertube is (??), I'd go straight for the jugular and ask which arts d'ya go for, like is it say the modern art museum and talbot rice thingy or the national gallery on the mound? Then follow that up with mexico and the Aztecs - like why them and not say Egypt or some of the ancient ruins in Asia?
Did not respond to this as this guy was in a relationship and had a kid.
The next day received the following:
25 December 2006
Well I figured, gazing over the Christmas carnage, that seeing as we both live in the shadow of Arthur's seat I'd have one last attempt (I figure 4 messages would be desperate, 5-6 a bit unnerving and 7+ downright creepy). So what you get for Christmas?
Still didn't respond. Thought he might take the hint and leave me alone.
Then low and behold guess what I received today:
03 January 2007
Please excuse me, I clearly didn't appreciate how special (or is that "wacky" or perhaps just rude), you actually are.
His location was now marked in Bristol. Funny that. Sorry? What was that? Wacky and rude for not responding to someones advert in dating column because they are in a relationship with child? Sorry - Fuck you mate - It's the sort of bastards like you that give men a bad name and so you can't take rejection on the chin so you have to write back and insult to feel better. So your quite happy to screw behind your partner's back - clearly FUCK OFF. BLOCK!!!
I felt so angry - so angry and then I thought to myself - I'm letting that piece of shit ruin my evening - NO.
Then low and behold just after I logged on I get a message from UserID DirtyGirlLover - what have I done to deserve this?
03 January 2007
Hiya babe, luv your profile you sound great. Luv to get to know you a bit better - At the moment I'm looking for no strings fun. Age and looks are unimportant, I just love women. x
WHERE DO I GET THESE TWATS FROM? WHERE DO THEY COME FROM?????????????????????????????????????????????????
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
The Devil's Juice
It's the 02 January - all the phone lines, broadband and tv cables have been down until now so after a million hours of sleep, loads of carrot juice, water and some good food - I'm suddenly beginning to feel my old self again.
I woke up to New Year with an awful hangover and a resolution that I will never drink vodka again. It never used to have this effect on me but since I started to drink it again (used to drink cider but it meant too many calories), it has been having a weird effect on me. I become an irrational bitch who thinks she can conqueror all and I really hate it. Last night, I managed to insult the bar staff as there was no prewarning of the bells - the first time we knew it was New Years was 12.15. I also managed to insult the cloakroom attendant, and a couple of PhD Students who flicked a 50p at me on the street as they were walking past whilst I was having a cigarette outside the club - I think I even managed to piss my mate S off as well. At the end of the evening, I came home and felt so alone that I burst into tears. I was a total bitch that evening - why - god only knows - what the hell came over me? So first thing is first - no more vodka for me. It’s not good.
So a day later, I feel more energised and looking forward to getting back to work. No New Years Resolutions for me this year however I have made an affirmation that I will be more decisive and not let the petty things tie me down. The only person who can control my life is me so I better start taking the reigns rather than hiding underneath the sheets and taking a POSITIVE action.
I managed to find the song that I used to love dancing to in the clubs a while back by Lexicon Avenue. Now, I know there are many of my friends that hate dance music - there is dance music and then there is dance music. All these bo bo bo bo bo with a terrible remake of a classic 80s song pushed on fast forward is not my cup of tea at all. The best way to describe this is that the ultimate dance music is like classical music - for some reason the beat, the tone, you feel this deep emotion, you get lost in the music, it is so euphoric - and I mean euphoric without the addition of drinks and drugs! I could dance and dance and dance and dance - it's amazing -the same is with classical music - it strikes a chord of such raw emotion within you -it's unexplainable.
So anyway - I decided to search out some more about this great DJ set - Lexicon Avenue - see www.lexiconavenue.com. Their sets are ussually played in Newcastle and abroad. So,I am thinking to getting some people down on my birthday down to Newcastle - well my 30th was crap - I got a box of teabags from my boyfriend and a diet book - don't ask - so I've decided I'm going to make up for this one by doing someting different this year. Oh that great song was From Dusk till Dawn - fab - best dance song ever!
I woke up to New Year with an awful hangover and a resolution that I will never drink vodka again. It never used to have this effect on me but since I started to drink it again (used to drink cider but it meant too many calories), it has been having a weird effect on me. I become an irrational bitch who thinks she can conqueror all and I really hate it. Last night, I managed to insult the bar staff as there was no prewarning of the bells - the first time we knew it was New Years was 12.15. I also managed to insult the cloakroom attendant, and a couple of PhD Students who flicked a 50p at me on the street as they were walking past whilst I was having a cigarette outside the club - I think I even managed to piss my mate S off as well. At the end of the evening, I came home and felt so alone that I burst into tears. I was a total bitch that evening - why - god only knows - what the hell came over me? So first thing is first - no more vodka for me. It’s not good.
So a day later, I feel more energised and looking forward to getting back to work. No New Years Resolutions for me this year however I have made an affirmation that I will be more decisive and not let the petty things tie me down. The only person who can control my life is me so I better start taking the reigns rather than hiding underneath the sheets and taking a POSITIVE action.
I managed to find the song that I used to love dancing to in the clubs a while back by Lexicon Avenue. Now, I know there are many of my friends that hate dance music - there is dance music and then there is dance music. All these bo bo bo bo bo with a terrible remake of a classic 80s song pushed on fast forward is not my cup of tea at all. The best way to describe this is that the ultimate dance music is like classical music - for some reason the beat, the tone, you feel this deep emotion, you get lost in the music, it is so euphoric - and I mean euphoric without the addition of drinks and drugs! I could dance and dance and dance and dance - it's amazing -the same is with classical music - it strikes a chord of such raw emotion within you -it's unexplainable.
So anyway - I decided to search out some more about this great DJ set - Lexicon Avenue - see www.lexiconavenue.com. Their sets are ussually played in Newcastle and abroad. So,I am thinking to getting some people down on my birthday down to Newcastle - well my 30th was crap - I got a box of teabags from my boyfriend and a diet book - don't ask - so I've decided I'm going to make up for this one by doing someting different this year. Oh that great song was From Dusk till Dawn - fab - best dance song ever!
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