The Devil's Juice

It's the 02 January - all the phone lines, broadband and tv cables have been down until now so after a million hours of sleep, loads of carrot juice, water and some good food - I'm suddenly beginning to feel my old self again.

I woke up to New Year with an awful hangover and a resolution that I will never drink vodka again. It never used to have this effect on me but since I started to drink it again (used to drink cider but it meant too many calories), it has been having a weird effect on me. I become an irrational bitch who thinks she can conqueror all and I really hate it. Last night, I managed to insult the bar staff as there was no prewarning of the bells - the first time we knew it was New Years was 12.15. I also managed to insult the cloakroom attendant, and a couple of PhD Students who flicked a 50p at me on the street as they were walking past whilst I was having a cigarette outside the club - I think I even managed to piss my mate S off as well. At the end of the evening, I came home and felt so alone that I burst into tears. I was a total bitch that evening - why - god only knows - what the hell came over me? So first thing is first - no more vodka for me. It’s not good.

So a day later, I feel more energised and looking forward to getting back to work. No New Years Resolutions for me this year however I have made an affirmation that I will be more decisive and not let the petty things tie me down. The only person who can control my life is me so I better start taking the reigns rather than hiding underneath the sheets and taking a POSITIVE action.

I managed to find the song that I used to love dancing to in the clubs a while back by Lexicon Avenue. Now, I know there are many of my friends that hate dance music - there is dance music and then there is dance music. All these bo bo bo bo bo with a terrible remake of a classic 80s song pushed on fast forward is not my cup of tea at all. The best way to describe this is that the ultimate dance music is like classical music - for some reason the beat, the tone, you feel this deep emotion, you get lost in the music, it is so euphoric - and I mean euphoric without the addition of drinks and drugs! I could dance and dance and dance and dance - it's amazing -the same is with classical music - it strikes a chord of such raw emotion within you -it's unexplainable.

So anyway - I decided to search out some more about this great DJ set - Lexicon Avenue - see www.lexiconavenue.com. Their sets are ussually played in Newcastle and abroad. So,I am thinking to getting some people down on my birthday down to Newcastle - well my 30th was crap - I got a box of teabags from my boyfriend and a diet book - don't ask - so I've decided I'm going to make up for this one by doing someting different this year. Oh that great song was From Dusk till Dawn - fab - best dance song ever!